It's not good to have your happiness dependent on someone else...

...but when your own company is depressing there isn't much choice.

Maybe I am depressed, but most likely i am just heartbroken. The first rule of depression is notice your thought patterns, become cognate of your cognitive processes.

At the moment, everything reminds me of her. The restaurant we used to go to, the cafes for breakfast, sitting in the park, that party we went to. E-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g. Every phone call, email and letter i hope is a message from her.

My plan lately has been to find a new crush, a new girl to dote on. This sort of works, until the new girl drops off the attention, then a compounded hangover hits you.